sometimes, i wish i was a little kid again. i didn’t have to worry, i could be completely oblivious and innocent. and i didn’t have to deal with any pain. but I’m 14 going on 15 and all i want is to get rid of this pain. to be held and to be told that I’ll be okay. To be whole once again. Instead of dealing with a mask, a fake smile, and a broken heart that’s still waiting to be fixed.
Had me in tears for half of the day and depressed for the rest. For the first time, I got an F on a test. I went to my psychiatrist at the school and she told me that “it’s okay to cry” no one has ever said that to me and I never felt so relived.
this really helps me relax and it’s such a beautiful piece
i only thought i was beautiful once in my entire lifetime. i’m still waiting for ppl either then my grandma and mom to call me it. *sigh*
they’re always there for you. through good times and bad. even though you can’t see them as much as you want to, you’ll have a smile knowing that they care about you. if you could have a second family, wouldn’t they be your sisters or your brothers? come on, you know you would love that. even when you’re drowning in tears or blinded by anger, they’ll be there to pull you to safety and become your eyes or voice or reasoning. my friends, i can’t thank you enough for all you’ve done for me. spending time with you, all of our inside jokes, and just being goofy, we all manage to have the best of times together. you are all my saviors.
i guess you can say that there truly is a first for everything. my parents don’t seem to notice that i have it but i have a little bit of a fever, horrible cough, stuffy nose, etc. speaking of which… *COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH* blah..at this rate, i feel like there is no air to support my lungs. to top it all off, i’m menstruating. oh happy day~